Little Heart Attacks
Do you ever feel like you are having a little heart attack? I think I do every day. Is it possible to experience cosmic jolts to the ole’ red sucker every once in a while? I think so. I’m feelin’ it. I’m feelin’ it tough lately.
When I get older and further away from the days when it was easier to endure physical pain, I realize just how integral the heart really is to daily function. Because when that thing hurts, or pounds too hard, it’s a wake up call. I’m realizing that perhaps it isn’t the heart that is in control though--it’s the mind. The mind is talking to the heart because the mind knows the only way to wake up the dude inside the body is to give a jolt to the motor.
Isn’t that what the heart essentially is: a motor? It’s responsible for the flow of everything blood. I think my brain is giving me little heart attacks everyday. I think when the big one comes I will be ready.
I'm not 100% sure though. This could all just be un-real.
When I get older and further away from the days when it was easier to endure physical pain, I realize just how integral the heart really is to daily function. Because when that thing hurts, or pounds too hard, it’s a wake up call. I’m realizing that perhaps it isn’t the heart that is in control though--it’s the mind. The mind is talking to the heart because the mind knows the only way to wake up the dude inside the body is to give a jolt to the motor.
Isn’t that what the heart essentially is: a motor? It’s responsible for the flow of everything blood. I think my brain is giving me little heart attacks everyday. I think when the big one comes I will be ready.
I'm not 100% sure though. This could all just be un-real.
posted by DeesKnees at 10:26 AM
6 Comments:
Those little pangs of discomfort could be explained medically. You could be having ischemia-which basically means that your heart is not getting adequate blood flow, as a result of athersclorosis(narrowing of the vessels that supply the heart with blood flow: which in turn can be influenced by diet, alcohol, and drug use to name a few).
It could be that you are taking in too many stimulants, i.e. Caffeine being a major one, but also nicotine.
It could mean that you are having anxiety issues as well. The mind does play a major role in how you feel physically. Being the masochisticbastaad you are this is the most probable cause of your chest discomfort. Stress, feelings of remorse, guilt, and inadequacy, can all contribute to the "mild heart attacks" you have been feeling.
Does that help any?
Anonymous,
Why you always hide behind the guise of the Anonymous crusader behooves me. It sounds like you know me. I think I know you. If you know me you would certainly know that I am not a smoker. So even mentioning the word nicotine and Dee in the same paragraph is wrong on so many levels.
Anyway, yeah stress, coffee. All that stuff gets in the way of heart normalcy. I know this. What can you do though?
Brad,
What I meant by enduring pain is that it seems when we are children we are alwasy running around and falling; scraping our knees; bangin our heads against walls and what not. And for whatever reason it was easier then. Nowadays pain comes at a price. The price of guilt and the price of scars. I notice as I get older that scars stick around a lot longer if not forever. Is this true? Does human skin become less tolerant to abrasions as we get older?
Hmmm...
Brad,
Believe or not I have begun doing some minor but important work out type activities before bedtime.
A few pushups here and there. And some sit ups.
But beyond that I exercise my mind more than anything. Probably the cause of all these little heart attacks.
Anyway,
Scarring is part of getting older I suppose. What can we do about that? Cosmetic surgery? Nah...I like a good cross faded notch across the palm of my hand. Or how bout when you get adult acne which leaves a mark for about a year. Does that happen to anyone?
Not me, of course. I have great skin. You wouldn't know though becuase I hide behind my hairy beard.
I like hairy beards.
I'm off the deep end now.
Later,
Dee
Brad,
You didn't shave. You were nice and hairy.
I liked it.
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